Hidden Torment: diary entries

The parents of Leanne Wolfe took part in a special Documentary on One, broadcast on RTÉ radio last Sunday

The parents of Leanne Wolfe took part in a special Documentary on One, broadcast on RTÉ radio last Sunday. Below is a selection of Leanne's diary entries.

"I will write about my family. It won't be a long one. I have one sister and one brother, so I shouldn't be long. I'll start with my Mum. She's a really classy woman. Lately we are getting so close and I really enjoy it. Before, I used to think 'oh mother, get away from me', but now I'd be lost without her."

"My Dad. What can I say. I'm a Daddy's girl. He always gives in to me, which is great help. If I want to get a new pair of shoes or something like that, he's a real gent. I wouldn't trade him for anything."

"I didn't write in ages. Been a bit occupied. Had a horse-riding show today. Had to do a six-course jump. Wasn't too bad, except for the fact that I knocked over pole number two. Personally, I think it was the horse's fault. Anybody who was riding Grumpy knocked over a pole."

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"Dear diary. I'm getting my hair done tonight. Not sure yet what I'm getting done. I think I am getting all-over brown with a small bit of redness going through it and blonde underneath, but I don't know yet. Gotta go, Leanne."

"Dear diary. Today is Paddy's Day. I went to the Savoy. Myself and "Mary One" had a huge fight and now her, "Mary Two" and "Mary Four" are after me. I thought we were getting closer. Don't think we'll be like that any more. I'm freaked out of my head. She's always fighting. I don't know what to do. They only use me. I don't need them telling me I'm fat. I don't know why the boys are getting involved. I even stay in at home over them and make myself sick. I will prove them wrong. Got to go. Love, Leanne."

"Dear diary. "Mary Two" came up to me Monday screaming and shouting. I was so scared. So sick of life. I never felt so depressed. I wish I had a new life. Say World War 2 was about to happen. I'm sick of it. I am so sick of her fighting with me."

"Dear diary. I went drinking last night. What a laugh. I'm getting too old to go drinking on the streets. It gets more boring each time. Me and "Mary Three" are at war. She says I'm a lick-ass. I just want to forget it. All I want is someone I can talk to about everything and love and love and love."

"Dear diary. Have been keeping to myself since "Mary One" hit me. Bitch. She has ruined my life. I kind of keep it to myself. I don't miss any of them. Better off without them. Better go. Leanne."

"There's gonna be war today. Me and "Mary Two". So I'm wearing a tracksuit today because I know they're going to be fighting with me. She's gonna fight me."

"The last few days have clearly been the worst for me. I met "Mary One" and she thumped me straight in the face. I have a big black eye. I'm mortified. I couldn't even hit her back, and everyone was laughing."

Teenagers who feel suicidal are urged to contact the HSE Suicide Prevention Helpline on 1800 742 745 or the Samaritans on 1850 609090.