An Englishman in Ireland: Edginess and paranoia under one of the world’s harshest lockdowns
What was I doing here, people asked with a hint of disapproval, a touch of accusation
Travel restrictions: a Garda checkpoint at Dublin Airport in January this year. Photograph: Dara Mac Dónaill
“Are you over from England?” Just five words. A simple enough question. Yet delivered by a supermarket manager in a small town in Co Kerry last year, shortly after Ireland had been forced into the first of its many lockdowns, the innocent question seemed to take on a new dimension.
People had been ordered to stay within 2km of their homes, but there were rumours that rogue elements, in these early disbelieving days of the pandemic, had ignored the restrictions and were continuing to travel. There was talk of holiday homes being occupied, of visitors arriving from elsewhere in Ireland – and across the sea from Britain.
Few cases of Covid-19 had been reported in the county, yet there was a growing fear of infection, of rule-breaking outsiders carrying the virus with them from Dublin and London. We had arrived from Cork, another perceived hot spot, a few weeks earlier, before the emergency measures took hold, but there were whispers of subsequent newcomers being reported to local gardaí. The mood was edgy, even a little paranoid.
Hence the casual convenience-store query, with its hint of disapproval, its touch of accusation.
“No, I’m not. I live here.”
I meant Ireland. The manager’s expression told me he was looking for something more specific. If I lived locally, why did he not recognise me? Why had he not seen me in the store before?
My partner, Jacqueline, and I returned to Cork from our house in Kerry later in 2020, and in effect we had two lockdown experiences – one rural, one urban. Much of the time we spent in Kerry was weirdly, guiltily positive. I was working on a book, which I completed. I had no excuses. At all. The lockdown was like some dark cosmic gift: here’s a chunk of time with no distractions whatsoever and no remote fear of missing out on anything.
There were sunny summer-afternoon cycle rides on a Ring of Kerry free of bulldozing coaches and zigzagging hire cars. There was the stillness and solitude of strolls along empty beaches, even if they did sometimes feel postapocalyptic – or like starring in your own episode of The Prisoner.
Back in the city there were (distanced) evening walks with friends and the revelation of seeing the familiar anew, of discovering alleyways, cul-de-sacs, houses, gardens, parklands, cemeteries, plaques and statues that I’d blindly whizzed past in a car. We became tourists in our own city, our own local-history guides. They were rambles that reminded me that travel is often more about the particular than the panoramic; it’s about paying attention.
The major minus – apart from the sadness and worry and Weltschmerz, of course – was the lack of freedom of movement. Although the 2km travel limit was lifted in June, the 5km rule was reimposed at the end of December – and lasted for the next 103 days. Most people I spoke to in Britain seemed unaware of just how stringent and repressive the restrictions were here in the Republic – nationwide checkpoints and on-the-spot fines for inessential travel – and, that according to an Oxford University analysis, Ireland was “living under one of the harshest coronavirus lockdowns in the world”.
There were roadblocks on all the major routes out of Cork, and we began to feel hemmed in. Not only was this the longest I had ever been without getting on a plane and going somewhere, especially back to family and friends in England, but it was hard to even venture beyond the city limits. It felt psychologically imprisoning – the Divine Republic not of Cork but of Gilead.
Which is why from last week, as Ireland’s lockdown eases, with hotels and guesthouses reopening last Wednesday and restaurants and gastropubs starting to serve people outdoors today, the sense of liberation seems that much greater.
You can’t get a room in a good hotel, especially one by the sea or with a spa, for love nor money, of course. But you can dream. Again. Of spending money on something more luxurious than organic chard. Of going somewhere new, and different. Of sleeping in a bed that you haven’t yourself made. Of putting on your glad rags and wandering down to a dinner cooked by real chefs in real time. Of a pint of Guinness at the bar. Of a late breakfast, the full Irish.
And dream that the inquiry “Are you over from England?” will once again mean what I’ve almost always found it to mean – over the 17 hugely enjoyable years that I’ve lived in Ireland, and even allowing for my naive idealism, both personal and historical – welcome. – Guardian
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